it’s not something people do for attention or just because they feel like
it. they do it to feel something. when your down and feel like you can’t control anything it’s something to feel and something you can control. addiction. bet you never would have associated them together. well you should. they are one in the same. cutting is as addicting as smoking
cigarettes. a little tip to anybody; if your friend is cutting don’t be like my mother and cry in front of them and tell them they are better then that and that they are selfish and disappointing. your the reason they started in the first place. people like you. assholes that always can say shit, but can never actually help. so take this advice, saying that will make cutters feel even more worthless and shitty. so good job. I’m proud to say that is something I overcame. not by choice, but I did it. nobody should go through what I went through or what some other people go through. so take this advice, get off your lazy asses and go to them. don’t text them. all your doing is getting blood on their phone.

I just wish you were here. none of this would be going on.

I’m so numb and have been for a long time. I’m desperate to feel something. anything. happiness. sadness. even pain. but I won’t go down that road again and let my mom cry those tears. not again. i can handle her yelling at me, not her crying because of me. I can’t stand the look of disappointment. I just want to sleep.